SIX MONTHS AFTER...
What do you do when things come crashing down around you?
How do you respond when things feel really uncertain?
Where do you go when life suddenly changes?
Sometimes we don’t know the answer to these questions until we are actually facing the circumstance that is redirecting our lives.
It’s been 6 months since I was almost taken out by meningitis and I can tell you that it has been a long 6 months in many ways. The overwhelming fatigue, the continuous brain fog, the achiness in my body, the headaches and nausea, and the lack of desire to want to do the things I enjoy doing. Though I would say that I am close to being back at 100 percent, I still often have moments or days where several of these symptoms come back reminding me of what happened on the weekend of October 11th and12th.
Saturday night into Sunday morning is where it started with a headache and feeling a little off. I thought I was just coming down with the flu or one of the other dozen illnesses floating around at the time. By Sunday night I wasn’t able to sleep due to the pain and nausea that intensified. Monday morning I had become confused, irritable, and completely adverse to any type of light. Again, the symptoms seemed to me like an uncomfortable flu but unbeknownst to me it was much worse than what I had imagined I was going through. It was not the flu. I made it to Tuesday in extreme discomfort crying out in the night for God to help me though I have no recollection of this. My wife’s account is far more accurate I can assure you.
Tuesday I found myself struggling to speak or make any conscious sound as I was writhing in pain and experiencing intense nausea. My wife Emma had made her way to work and told her boss how bad of shape I was in. He quickly replied to her, “You should go home and check on your husband.” She did, and it was on the way home as she was praying that she heard the Holy Spirit tell her to take me immediately into the ER or I would die.
As she found me confused, writhing in pain, without a coherent sentence to be made she strongly urged me to get up and go to the ER with her. In typical Dan fashion, that being an astute aversion to going to the Doctor, I said no, or grunted emphatically, as I thought I could sleep it off and take plenty of fluids. I had no idea just how bad it was!
After me trying to just get back to bed to try and sleep it off the Holy Spirit told me some of the wisest words I have heard, “Listen to your wife. Go to the ER.” Sure enough, my greatest irritation happened. I had a terrible drive into the ER, then got to spend what seemed like an eternity waiting to just get seen by an intake nurse.
They did the intake after seeing that I could not remember my name, or remember my birthdate, and after seeing I couldn’t even write my initials.I ended up having a temperature of 104.3℉ which I had for around 5 days with a migraine to match. My brain was cooking on high causing my cognitive function to almost completely diminish. Thank God my cognitive function came back as in many cases patients suffer residual effects of memory loss for up to 2 years.
After a lumbar puncture, otherwise known as a spinal tap, they found out I had meningitis, which happens to be extremely contagious, rare, and deadly if left untreated. The Holy Spirit was right as always and was verified by my doctor he believed I would have died if I hadn’t gone in when I did. I continued to stay in the hospital for 5 more miserable yet impactful days.
Unfortunately, things were not smooth after their findings. I went through a bomb threat, collapsed veins due to severe dehydration, limited sleep due to pain, and a throbbing migraine which lessened to a severe headache after days in the hospital. But while I was laid up in the hospital God gave me opportunity after opportunity to connect with the nurses, doctors, and even a chaplain to share the love of Christ.
Like it says in 1 Peter 3:15, “But in your hearts revere Christ as Lord.” That’s where it starts revering Christ as Lord knowing He is in control. It goes on to say, “Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have” He gave me chances to share hope, joy, and love with those in need. It wasn’t just the person in the hospital bed who needed the Great Physician. It was everyone in there.
I didn’t really feel fear about what was happening as I was just trying to make it through each day, but my wife was experiencing fear, wondering if she would have to raise our two boys on her own. If I would die in the aftermath of a bomb threat. If she would have to watch me writhe in pain and possibly pass away. If she would have to do this all on her own. What was her life going to look like?
But God showed up and Emma continued to trust in His goodness and provision. She continued to praise through the storm. She continued with the God of the universe at her side, at her front and her back, fully surrounding her with comfort, peace and love.
So what do you do when things come crashing down? How do you respond when things are uncertain? Where do you go when life suddenly changes?
Life continues on and things continue to go awry. The residual effects of meningitis still cause issues in my life and in my body. Even with that aside life is still life. The world is still the world, full of brokenness,troubles, evil, and sin, but I choose to trust in the God who knit me together in my mother’s womb. I choose to see Him active in my life and the world around me. I choose to worship Him in the good and the bad. I encourage you to do the same.
As Jesus said in John 16:33b,
“In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world.” It seems that things are promised to go awry, that things in this world will cause us trouble, that things at some point just might fall apart. But Jesus tells us to take heart, to be encouraged to the core of our being, because He has overcome the world. We can and should trust that because God is still God! By taking heart, we are actively putting our trust in the one who forgives, the one who heals, the one who rescues, and the one who brings freedom from fear, loneliness, pride, and sin.
There is a lot more I could write about this experience but what I am left with though is this; no matter what, even if you’re on your deathbed or close to it...
- God’s not done with you yet (Isaiah 43:19)
- You can still worship Him (Psalm 34:1)
- You can still share His goodness, proclaim the Gospel, and be the light to those in the darkness (1 Peter 3:15)
- You can still have a grateful heart even if yours might stop beating (John 11:25-26)
- You can still trust Him (Proverbs 3:5-6)
- And you can take heart that He has overcome (John 16:33)!
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